Yesterday was the day that Riley was due. I was supposed to go to a day spa in honor of it, however I decided my husband & I needed to see (aka new glasses) more than I needed to be pampered. So instead I worked my 10 hour shift at a fast food place. It's probably better that I was working so that I wasn't thinking.
On the positive side of things, I found out Monday that I am pregnant again. I haven't had a doctor confirm it yet, will do that next Thursday, but I'm pretty excited. Or I'm trying to stay that way. I'm having no problems being excited and talking about it. My problem is feeling attached to the baby. I know I've only known for a few days, and guessed it for a few more, but I find myself trying to distance myself a bit. I'm so scared that I'll lose this baby like I lost Riley that I'm shutting down about it. I'm trying to give it to God though. It's hard.
Have any of you had a miscarriage and then worried when you've gotten pregnant again? How did you connect to the life inside of you through that worry? Any suggestions?
